Now This Is The Season For Dreaming Answer:
This was one of the first head canon questions i answered :) You can find it under my “headcanons” tab on my home page.
But I don’t think I talked about the memories and how they affect Quinn, so I’ll do that here.
Quinn goes through extensive therapy in order to make peace with her past, and in oder to be able to move past her childhood and the way her father treated her. As his abuse was as physical as it was mental, Quinn still flinches whenever someone makes a sudden movement toward her, and she probably still becomes nervous when she’s alone in a space with a man around her father’s age. I think all of this diminishes with the help of her therapist and other members of her support system (and especially Rachel, who has to work beyond hard to make Quinn feel safe and to get it through her head that no one is going to hurt her like that again).
I’m sure Quinn would still wake from dreams, in a cold sweat, screaming or crying out from memories of Russell hand (Cognac or Whiskey bottle grasped between his fingers) bearing down on Quinn. Some nights she doesn’t wake, just lies asleep under the covers, shaking and whimpering to dreams of her father coming into her room at night and kneeling on her bed. Those nights are the worst for Rachel, who sometimes can’t wake Quinn no matter how hard she tries, and has to sit there watching the love of her life become consumed over and over again by memories. Sometimes all Rachel can do is wrap her arms around her crying wife and hold her tight, stroking her hair and whispering into her ear until Quinn snaps out of it and wakes up. I think the first few times this happened, Quinn would be embarrassed and ashamed and she’d pull away from Rachel, hurrying to the bathroom to wash her face and collect herself. She wouldn’t want to talk about it when she comes back out. When she begins to trust Rachel more, she wakes up and wants nothing more than to draw Rachel closer and bury her face in Rachel’s neck, pressing so closely into the tinier girl, as if she were trying to melt into her.
I also think that the memories of Russell would make her even more fiercely protective of Rachel. Knowing what men (or anyone, really), have the capability to do, she’d be constantly worried for Rachel. She’d beg her not to walk alone in the city at night, and she’d implore her not to go to parties where she’d be the only girl. She’d promise Rachel that it wasn’t about trust, but Rachel would probably get angry which would no doubt lead to an argument about Quinn trying to “control” her. But then Quinn would whisper how she sometimes can’t sleep at night because the worst nightmares she has aren’t ones where Russell is hurting her, but the ones where he’s hurting Rachel. Where Rachel takes Quinn’s place, and everything that happened to Quinn is now happening to Rachel, while Quinn is forced to watch. And Rachel lets out a small gasp and a sigh, and promises Quinn that she’ll do everything she can to stay safe.