"You’ll meet her, she’s very pretty, even though sometimes she’s sad for many days at a time. You’ll see, when she smiles, you’ll love her." ♥ ☾ ☮
Anna. 20. New York.
I definitely agree. I would add that Santana gets to see that side of Quinn as well, though definitely less than Rachel (Quinn would most likely go to Santana for help when she’s afraid of worrying Rachel).
Quinn’s an overwhelmingly vulnerable creature, something manifested through her constant need for validation and power. She wants the world to think she’s anything but vulnerable, so that’s how she acts, but of course those closest to her know that a lot of her confidence—at least in the beginning—is highly staged to perpetuate the high standards where her reputation is concerned.
I can hardly think of an aspect of Quinn’s life that she doesn’t feel vulnerable about (however secretly), except perhaps her intelligence. Quinn’s an intellectual, but since she went through high school as a closet intellectual, that part of her life wasn’t really something that anyone focused on. It was always beautiful Quinn, stunning Quinn, hot Quinn, fucked-up Quinn, bulimic Quinn, depressed Quinn, cheerleader Quinn, head bitch Quinn, glee club member Quinn. How I see it—and I base a lot of this off of actual canon—her intelligence and aptitude concerning academics was hardly ever mentioned, so she was able to enjoy it simply for herself. It never became what she was known for by the school, so she never had to hide behind it, or use it as a tool to project herself a certain way. Since no one really focused on her brain, it was something she could feel confident about on her own, because it wasn’t subject to judgement of the public eye, like other parts of herself (i.e. her body, her cheer abilities, etc.)
But yeah, pretty much with everything else, Quinn is highly vulnerable. Needy however, I’m struggling a little bit to concede…yes she can be incredibly needy with Rachel; no doubt Quinn would have some pretty huge trust issues, and she’d need a lot of reassurances that Rachel isn’t going to leave her, or that she’s using her for her looks or status or anything like that. But in terms of being needy in general, in any times outside of the private realm she’s forged with Rachel, I don’t think that’s true at all. Quinn strives to be anything but needy. Dependence is something that she’s learned, from a very young age, only disappoints you and leaves you feeling empty and betrayed. Quinn doesn’t depend on anyone, and she prides herself in that. I’d imagine she’d take it too far, to the point where she’d be so fearful of needing anyone, that she’d turn down a lot of offers of help and support from her friends, because she wouldn’t want to seem like she was relying on them. In Quinn’s mind, dependence is a vice, and independence a great and necessary strength. I believe she uses her independence to further her power and status at school, as well— if she doesn’t need anyone, then it’s harder for people to tear her down through others. If something ever happened to knock Santana or Brittany down off the hierarchy of McKinely, Quinn would still be on top, ruling with an ice cold, passive expression. Because she doesn’t need them for her own personal successes. Ugh, I could go on forever about that, because there are so many layers to it all, but I know that’s not the question you asked for, so I’ll stop :)
But I do agree that, apart from Santana once in a while, Rachel is the person who is lucky (?) enough to see Quinn at her most vulnerable and, for lack of a better term, needy. Rachel is always there to pick Quinn back up whenever she’s fallen (even when Quinn resists her help to the extreme, again from a fear of seeming dependent, weak, or needy).
As their relationship progresses, and Quinn starts to open up more and become more comfortable with her frequent (though getting less frequent) vulnerability, it starts to be less of a struggle for Rachel to get her to open up. Quinn has less reservations about seeming weak in front of Rachel, because she starts to realize that needing people isn’t always a bad thing—she beings to understand that relationships are situations of give and take, and that as many times as she’s needed to protect or heal a vulnerable Rachel, she’s going to have to let Rachel do the same for her.
I think as Quinn gets older and stronger and comes to terms with who she is and who she wants to be, she morphs into this incredibly beautiful, strong (mentally, emotionally, etc), powerful, grounded, and focused woman. She isn’t vulnerable about the same things anymore, though old haunts to arise on occasion.
That’s the reason I love Quinn’s character so much, because I see it as this ever-changing, incredibly complex and layered thing that has such an fascinating, inspiring, and real quality of development to it. She’s one of a kind ;)